triumph.

today i hit a milestone i wasn't aiming for. heck, i didn't even know it existed. didn't suspect there was a line i would cross today. but i did. i jogged.

now if you are thinking, big deal, then you are someone who has never been obese. you have never been just honestly fat. you have never felt the after-shock vibrations that happens when just honestly really overweight people jog. normal people thump thump when they run. fat people thump-sloosh, thump-sloosh.

and i don't mean i jogged to the car to get something in a hurry. i got on the treadmill, felt good, turned it up, still felt good, turned it up some more, and ran (jogged) for something like 20 minutes. i don't know exactly how long it was because i knocked the stupid safety magnet off and lost the info for the first half.

but it was a long time. and it was okay. if it had been less okay, i'd have been watching the clock. but it was pleasant. i felt good. i felt healthy. i felt like not an elephant stampeding. i felt not so fat. ohhhhh - that is indeed a good feeling.

i am within 4 lbs of the least i've weighed in 13 years. i am within 10 lbs of weighing less than my husband. big milestones just ahead. but today i crossed an amazing wonderful milestone i didn't know was there. 24 lbs down, i ran (jogged).

sigh.